Sometimes I forget. Really, I do. When I’m knee deep in work and working my ass off for my patients I forget that I have breast cancer. Then I’ll just stop for a moment and zone out briefly in front of the computer and come to the realization that things AREN’T alright. Still trying to rap my head around this monumental thing in my life. I’ve told all the important people in my life and posted on Facebook to reach everyone else. I have found a lot of support from old friends who I keep in touch with on FB.

I have to wonder why this happened, though. My first thought was some kind of heinous karma for something I did in my past. Or was it years of being on hormonal birth control in various forms *(the pill & the patch)? I was on the patch when I got married and was on the pill on and off when I was younger and was on the pill for the entirety of the pandemic. The reason because I have Fibroids which cause painful periods and when i get pain i swallow Motrin like candy. (staying within the safe daily limit of course, cause I’m a nurse after all, lol). Anyway, I wonder why this happened. Was it my fault?

When I called my friend NY to let her know about my diagnosis and she told me that she has the same thing! She already been through surgery and gave me a heads up as to what to expect. Her treatment plan is different than mine right now. I was floored to hear that from her! Hubby was like cluster cancers. We lived in the same town for a few years . I lived in the village and she lived outside the village and we also worked together at Arby’s (good times), Frequented the California Diner on Sunrise highway, and cut school to go to the pancake house on route 112. We would walk through the woods to get to the movies at the Patchogue 13. I think we did drink the same “city water”. But who knows?