Exactly one month ago today my husband died. Self inflicted gunshot wound to the mouth. I found him in the morning when I came out from the bedroom to get ready for work. I am devastated, heart broken and angry at him for him for leaving me all alone in the world, He was my love, my partner for 17 years. What possessed him to do this I am wondering. Was it the Trulicity which caused suicidal ideation? Was it known and unknown responsibilities that piled up on him. I can only wonder.

When I found him I screamed and screamed in my kitchen and then screamed at his body! Then I called the police to report the suicide and then I called work to let them know I wouldn’t be in to work that day. and then I called his brother to let him know. He was in disbelief.

If it weren’t for my sister-in-law coming down to help me I would have been completely paralyzed with grief. She helped me do what I needed to do to dig myself out of this pit of grief and get things done. I am thankful to her eternally.

If you or anyone you know is having thoughts of suicide please call 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.