We are now into January and I have been on my own for almost a month now. It’s only gotten slightly easier as I gain more confidence but I still feel like an idiot much of the time. I feel inadequate much of the time as well.

It has been stressful. I have to ask what seems like a million questions. How long will people tolerate that? How long can I tolerate feeling like an idiot? To be fair, we were warned in nursing school about this.  Expect to feel like an idiot for the first year.    It is very stressful to feel like this much of an idiot.  I hope it gets better soon.

To top off stress at work my little dog Buddy has been diagnosed with cancer and has a mass in his lymph node in his pelvic canal.  We start treatment on Friday for that.   Poor little guy. He’s healthy now but I am afraid of many of the side effects of the medication we will be using.